Part Two: Ummm...

yeah so i know how i said this was to be continued, but....well i got nuthin else to say really. maybe if i ever got any feedback i would be a more enthusiastic writer but as we (meaning i) all know there isnt any. soooo watever.

Part One: People Suck....what else is new?

people are just that......imperfect, pitiful, little creatures that call themselves human beings...no one is above that label. people let u down and stab u in the back, and betray u at the worst possible times. yes dare i say it...PEOPLE SUCK!! superficialness has reached an all time high. depression may be a chemical imbalance but i believe its caused by Psychological abuse at the hands of the world. but we dont have to have faith in people and we dont have to accept their imperfection as our standard. while people are totally disfunctional and pathetic, God is perfect, pure, holy, just, omnicient, omnipotent, omnipresnt, and much much more. dont get me wrong, i think we should learn to trust people and encourage them as well as allow ourselves to be encouraged toward perfection (Christ), but ultimately we must put our faith and hope and trust in God. some people say "well God let me down", or "if God cares than why do bad things happen to good people." and i tell u it is not to discourage us but to strengthen us. we live in a fallen world (our fault not God's) and therefore bad things happen to all people. God never lets us down or abandons us so long as we call on his name. if it appears that God has walked away from u, perhaps it is because u have walked away from Him. and While God is LOVE he is also much more than that. TO BE CONTINUED.......

What I Think About in the Wee Hours...

it really frys me how people will take wat u look like and judge yer strengths and weeknesses by wat they see. so just becuase i enjoy wearing nice clothes and looking as best i can, i must be a week, pitiful, giggly little, whiney girl. another thing that frys me is how we play to the roles we r given. because its wat people think i am i become that which i hate. most people havent seen my firey, stubborn, headstrong. independant, can-do-anything side. not saying thats bad lol but i feel so worthless around a lot of my friends. i constantly feel like i need to prove myself wen around them but im afraid if i try to ill fall flat on my face and prove them right instead. or wen i occasionally do something like that everyone is so shocked and i feel more how inadaquite i look in their eyes. i admit it i struggle with selfconsciousness a lot more than i should. wow i have gotten a lot bolder in my blogging lol.....guess its cuz no one reads it besides maybe K and she has no sympathy for me...not that im lookin fer any, its just that its 12:42 in the morning and i cant sleep so im putting down my thoughts which supposedly helps. this whole writing out my thoughts thing is kinda theraputic cuz ive not really got anyone to tell them to who doesnt want to fix it. im my own shrink lol!!! well anyway maybe ill write a poem er something........*steps down from soap box*

Shakespeare's XXVII Sonnet

Weary with toil, I haste me to my bed,
The dear repose for limbs with travel tired;
But then begins a journey in my head,
To work my mind, when body's work's expired:
For then my thoughts, from far where I abide,
Intend a zealous pilgrimage to thee,
And keep my drooping eyelids open wide,
Looking on darkness which the blind do see:
Save that my soul's imaginary sight
Presents thy shadow to my sightless view,
Which, like a jewel hung in ghastly night,
Makes black night beauteous and her old face new.
Lo, thus, by day my limbs, by night my mind,
For thee and for myself no quiet find.


As always William hits the nail on the head, he is such a genious!

The Curse

i think that the greatest curse of being a writer is that your speach/thoughts is/are always dramatic and poetic.

Ramblings

why do people do things and then regret them? why do people love with all their hearts only to have them crushed? why do people dream and then wake up to a reality that they hate? why must people struggle day in and day out living a lie so that society will respect or at least accept them? who cares what people say my reputation is if i know the truth and God knows the truth? why must i constantly cater to what everyone else says is proper or polite? isn't it enough that God knows my heart? why shouldnt i burst out in a glorious song to God when im standing in the mall or why is it not acceptable for me to be myself? because people dont like me. because they want to harness my true beauty and squeeze it into a tight mold of their choice. because they want me to be who they want me to be and wen they find out who i am they flick me away like a disgusting tick. they cant accept that im human and make mistakes. they cant accept that im imperfect. so i hide myself and wen i cant supress it any longer i bubble forth with a great passion for life and love and fun, i cant contain my laughter and excitment. people find me obnoxious. their words cut me, sharper than a knife and i retreat once more. the people like me once i fit into wat they think i should be. they think they know me but they dont. only God knows how ive suffered. guilt, shame, nothingness... those stories were all about me!! dont you see?!?! you dont understand. how can you? you dont even know to understand. you could probably help but i dont want you to. i wont let myself dissapoint you. becasue thats wat i am, a dissapointment. i dont wallow in self pity i accept this lot. i have faith that one day God will change me and my circumstances. he is the only one who truly loves, cares, and knows me above all else. i strive for something better...i strive for wat only he can give me, ultimate satisfaction in him. perhaps it is not i who suffered after all...maybe it was the characters that i became in books. well no matter it is still something i bear on my shoulders, but i sullenly hand it over to Christ. truly he is the sufferer. im so unworthy, but God chose me, and i am his.


these ramblings are not pointed and they have no meaning watsoever lol i just decided to try something. the memoirs you see above are my swirling thoughts. do u see how truly abstract i am? my thoughts go like this in circles for hours and i usually have no idea wat im talking/thinking about. my thoughts are not always on this subject but they are always serious and confusing lol. this is why i write. i have a specific reason for every single thing i write though it may not seem so. most things i write specifically relate to myself and something i am going through. i try to organize my mind but i cant so i write stories to help me understand myself...no im not insane or maybe i am, but who cares? lol

Liberation

i have struggled for many months with a certain issue/sin. it has pushed me away from my Maker and some of my friends. it has weighed heavily on my heart, consuming my thoughts, not allowing me to feel free to share my pain. i let it become a giant wall between me and the outside world. i recently read a book called Boy Meets Girl by: Joshua Harris and though the issue is unrelated the book helped me understand some things i had been struggling with. the timeless truths of the Bible penetrated through the lies i had told myself for so long. i have finally come to terms with things and i realize that dwelling on them only makes things worse. for a long time i would think to myself....well i know that God is in control and he has my best interest in mind, but wat if i dont like wats best for me? wat if i cant find happiness in wat God decides should happen? i see now how silly that idea is because God wants me to have joy and delight, not in things or circumstances, but in Him! Praise God for liberating me from my own pit of darkness!! may God be glorified in me for i am satisfied in Him.

The Paranormal

I just finished reading a book called Three. In this book, the main character is being plagued by a demon from the past. In the end it turns out that he had two alter egos, one is good and one is evil. In a sense he created his own reality. I believe that we all do this. The question is why? I am an avid reader and have been most of my life. When I’m reading a book I’ve always described it as escaping reality, but until now I have not fully understood the truth in those words. To some people reading is a waste of time, to others it is an adventure yadda yadda yadda…
When I was about 13 years old the second Lord of the Rings movie came out. I never watched the first movie because I have never been able to handle anything even remotely scary (I realize now it’s because I believed it was real) but there was a lot of peer pressure since it was so popular. I never intended to watch the second one but my brother’s friends brought it to our house one night to watch. We lived in a rather small house and they had the volume turned way up, so it was almost impossible to avoid watching with out looking like a baby. I watched bits and pieces of it until I started to get interested. That was a BIG mistake. Later I remember waking up in the middle of the night thinking The Orcs are coming to get me! I have to get away; I have to get out of here! I was frantic until I calmed myself to think about it and realized it wasn’t real.
Thinking back on my childhood I was weird. When I played pretend it was real (to me at least). I made up scenarios for myself and characters. I was either the victim of some evil plot or the one charged to rescue the victims destined to always fail. I only played these scenes out by myself and only in my head. When I was with other people I usually pretended to be a princess or my favorite animal the dog. Once I was alone pretend was more real. One time I convinced myself that my parents were divorced or that they beat me so I ran away. Of course it was completely ridiculous, and my parents are happily married without a trace of abuse anywhere. I would pretend that I was crippled and no one liked me, when in truth it was the opposite. Why did I do these things? Why did I dwell on evil so much?
Do we all have demons that plague us? Are we battling ourselves, each other, spirits, or nothing? I am now 16 years old and I still find myself having difficulty differentiating between fact and fiction, reality and fantasy. What is real and what is made up? I think that many if not all people do strange things like this, but most people don’t think about it or choose not to remember certain things. The human mind is so amazing that we can’t even begin to understand it. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not some crazy psychopath with multiple alter egos. I am in fact quite normal compared to many peoples’ standards as far as the mind is concerned. However I do have a lot of time to contemplate these things and I enjoy it. Now does that make me weird? Probably, but then you have to ask yourself who defines what is “weird”?

The Wilderness

well we r off tomorrow to the mountain. im excited, perhaps this is the year that i will get my first elk. my gpa is flyin in from Texas on thurs. i think and him and mom will follow us up on friday. sat. is opening day!!!! woot woot!! hopefully Austin wont complain too much lol and we should have a grrrreeeeaaaat time. so i guess ill see ya all next week wen i get back. bai bai

Wally World Spree

ok so i entered this writing contest at school. i worked on this piece fer a week, and labored over it fer hours. i was excited about it and turned it in last Monday. today we got the results of that contest. guess who won......... yup me. BUT guess how many other people entered this contest..........1 yes thats right 1 other person besides myself actually turned in an entry. and do you know wat the prize fer this Oh so wonderful contest was???? a 5 doller shopping spree at Wally World. this sounds cynical, but the first thought that popped into my head was Yes now i can buy a pack of gum!!! lol i truly im happy with my victory, but i think it is safe to say that my spirit was dappened wen i heard the BUT's. the piece i entered was called "The Tree That Hugged the World" and u can find this story whcih was based on the crucifiction on my other blog Creative Writing for Dumbies. so check it out and holla back lol. luv u all lots

It's A Communist Plot

ok so i bet yer all wondering where i get all these crazy conspiracy theories.....well let my introduce my gpa. i am like him a lot. papa has a lot of theories too lol but they usually end with "its a communist plot". some other phrases he uses include "and this is all happening at 9:32 (example)" or "opusha" these and many others are clasic papa sayings. i love my gpa, he is one of mt heros and im proud to be so much like him. i think ill write a piece for him...... well anyway peacin out luv ya all lots

WhatSpace?

ok so the main reason i havent posted in a while is because i decided to see if i was right about MySpace. dont bash the product unless u've tried it kinda thing. well.......it truly sucks. ya there r a lot of saweet things u can do, but it takes up soooo much time. it replaces e-mail, AIM, and blogs. so if u dont have one u r pretty much left in the dust or if yer friends dont have one it is insanely difficult to keep in touch with them. ya it was pretty kool fer a while but seriously how safe do u think they can make that stuff, i know people who can hack their way thru stuff much more private than MySpace. ya im addicted to my computer but im not gonna become a mindless MySpacer (had some of u fooled didnt i?) the quizes r lame and boring and most r inaccurate. so trust me ive tried and its not worth it.

Trouble>Worth

really, y do i even bother? this blog is more trouble than its worth, no one comments....its like im talking to myself. la la la la la..........in a couple years ill look back on how bored i always was and that's it! i have plenty of conspiracy theories and pet peeves to write about, but i already know wat they r so y post them if no one reads it?!?!?!? is there anyone out there who cares wat i think about life? (let me answer that for myself) NEGATIVE i hate writing things down for no reason...i could never keep a diary. well peace out to myself i guess

Home On The Range

hey im back from Arizona. it was fun at some times and boring at others. it was also a little sad since we left andrew there, but he is having a blast and loves college life so far. hannah and i saw Step Up and it was amazing!!! it was sooo good and there were no sex scenes and hardly any cussing. i really liked it a lot. umm i did other things too but i dont really feel like elaborating at the moment. on the way back the clouds in New Mexico were incredible!! they were so thick and fluffy, it looked like a giant blanket made out of soft wool was covering the earth. lol today we are organizing our school room and we will start school on monday. i was hoping it would be a little latter but i am anxious to get started. well im hungry so im gonna go scrounge for food. later

Dying of Heat Stroke

hey peeps, im in Az and totally dying from the heat. lol im at Hannah's and we r going to see the new dance movie Step Up tonight. I AM SOOOO EXCITED! i cant wait to see it. today i got my hair straightened for the first time (thanx to hannah) and i think i really like it (i didnt think i would). mmwell not mush else is happening...........i guess ill talk ta ya all la8r

Lacking Postage

hey i havent posted in a while. well Kristin is finally coming home tomorrow after being gone almost all summer. tomorrow is my sweet sixteen birthday bash yaaaaay!!!!! and if u r wondering y i havent posted anything on my other blog lately, it is because i have been working on my stories a lot more than creative writing pieces. ill try to add something new soon but who knows wen i'll get the chance. with this hectic week that is coming up it will be amazing if i get anything done at all. we r leavin town on thurs. to take andrew to college in phoenix yaaay!! it should be fun but it will also be kinda sad. *tear* lol well i really have nuthin much to say.......ooooo i just figured out how to add pics to wat i write sweeeeeet!!!! ok signing off

Corrupting Crutches

The public school system is corrupt. Students are three to six years behind in reading, which is unacceptable. In Arizona homeschoolers are no longer required to take standardized tests because they were embarrassing the public school kids. It is not because the homeschoolers are so far advanced. They are at the right level or at least close to it and the public school kids are just really far behind. Schools are dummying down curriculum to accommodate students who could care less about school. If they would apply themselves they could easily be at an adequate level. Every child has the potential to be an A student, especially with all the crutches that teachers are forced to provide.

Tasting My Own Medicine

i started writing this article last year at school but never really completed till recently. i believe this with all my heart but have done a very poor job at following my own advice. someday i hope to achive true contenment and disciplin. God is constantly working on me and im glad that he'll never give up. what would any of us do without him? im so glad i dont have to know wat that is like. i hope u enjoy and if u dont agree i would like to be enlightened. May the Lord bless you and keep you in your coming years.

The Value of Time

A Persons life is defined not by the large things that happen but by the miniscule choices that one makes every day. One thing that plays a large part in our decision making is time. People say that “stopping to smell the roses” is a waste of time, or that they don’t have time for this or that. They say, “Life is short, get done what you can.” Life is only short because we make it so. We don’t have time for the important things, only the urgent ones. The things that need doing now are what hold our attention. There are 86,400 seconds in every day and usually all 86,400 of them are stolen by unimportant urgency. We need to ask ourselves “What matters more?” We need to strictly sort out our priorities. People at the end of their lives say things like “If only I hadn’t chosen to…I wouldn’t be here.” or “If only that one person that one time hadn’t made that one decision, I would be a completely different person.” These decisions are dictated predominantly by time. The only truly unforgiving thing in this world is time. You can’t go back once you’ve gone forward. Every moment is someone’s first, and every moment is someone’s last. Life goes on from beginning to end. What will you do with your time? Choose what you will do with your time in a manner that you want be ashamed of when you reach eternity. I saw a t-shirt the other day that said, “Live your life so the pastor doesn’t have to lie at your funeral.” I know you have heard it a million and one times but don’t put off for tomorrow what you could get done today. This proverbial phrase has been lightly thrown around for years, but how can it be diligently applied? I cannot tell you that for I too struggle horribly with this issue. I have found that the American culture is a slave to the tyranny of Time. Almost every new invention that comes out is to make things easier and to fit them in to your “busy schedule” because you don’t have time to do it the other way. A few examples of these inventions are as follows: microwave ovens, Campbell’s soup to go, anything portable, fast food, e-mail replaces letters and cell phones replace home phones. I’m not saying these are bad things just making my point of how dependant Americans have become of things that are quick and easy so it doesn’t slow down their busy lifestyle. One of my favorite things to say when I’m joking around with my friends about how life is too hectic is “Stop the world I wanna get off!” I imagine the world spinning around at a super high speed and me jumping off into outer space where everything is calm and peacefully slow. Unfortunately though we cannot just jump off the world when life gets crazy, but we can make an effort to slow it down by prioritizing our priorities (my apologies for the redundancy). I hope this strikes a cord and that we can all, myself included, slowly begin to convert from unimportant urgency to non-urgent importance. I have one last question to leave you with. Why spend your life attaining your American dream and building your career only to find at the end of your life that you have passed things by and wasted all your strength and energy on working?

Realizations

ok so im already starting to realize a few things after my Mexico trip. one of them is that it is extremely easy to be kind and encouraging to those who r kind and encouraging, but insanely difficult to be kind and encouraging to those who are not. im struggling to hold on to the attitude towards people and things that i formed while in Basconcobe. i think that the people who arent dont realize it, and i didnt really either before but now im finding out just how bad my own attitude was before our trip. my goal is to hold my "sunny disposition" and shine it on those around me. please pray for me in this because im already having difficulties and i think a lot of that is because i once again have the luxeries of my american lifestyle. i need to be able to live the way i have been but less selfishly and i guess like more going with the flow and not always having to have things my own way. i miss my Mexico family but im glad to be back with my family family. monkey boy gets home tomorrow and midget man hasnt been too bad so we're all doin great. i need to go do my devos and get in bed. ttfn luv ya all lots. night

An Ongoing Mission

hey we r back frum Mexico!!! we had a blast it was soooooo much fun. but not only did we have fun, we made a difference or rather God did in the lives of those in Basconcobe and in our own. im so excited to share all the stories but i fear that will take forever lol. it is impossible to explain everything that happened there so you should just check it out for yerselves. i miss everyone in Mexico already we met so many interesting and wonderful people. the children were so fun and they followed us everywhere begging for piggy back rides. God is truly amazing and we got to see firsthand and experience his love for us and our fellow believers in Mexico, and his magnificent glory and power. his provision is so prominent, and his grace insurmountable. every single person in our group came away from this trip touched and changed in some way or another. each testimony blazes for the glory of God and burns bright for his amazing sovereignty. i want to encourage any and all who read this to continue faithfully in yer walk and seek out the beauty and sovereignty of God every day. upon our departure we recieved bracelets that say, "Amar A Dios Es Amar A Todos" which means "To Love God Is To Love All" ill try to recap some of my trip later but until then may the Lord bless you and keep you. hasta la vista!!

Ariba!

Yaaaaay Mexico!!! im goin ta mexico on a mission's trip with my youthgroup. im a little nervous and aprehensive about the whole trip but im sure it will be great. my big bro is going which is exciting cuz i havent seen him in 5 weeks and i miss him a ton!!!!!!! i hope he hasnt changed too much, but of course some change (hopefully for the better lol) is inevitable. im all packed and ready to go. as K would say we r leavin at the butt freakin crack o' dawn!!!!!!!! lol 4:00
!!!!yipes!!!! o well. well i guess there isnt much else to say....ill be gone till like the 11th i think but i will give a complete update wen i get back. aight adios!!! o wait one question..............wat the heck does ariba mean anyway?!?!?!?!? haha lol ttfn

The Great Outdoors

im going camping!!! yaaaaay!!! i havent gotten to go camping at all this summer so far, so im excited. last year we went once er maybe twice. anyway my dad is letting me take my dogs. i have a golden and a lab....Roxy and Peanut. im taking a tent so they can sleep in it with me instead of having to be in their kennels. niether one of them has ever been camping so it will be fun for all of us lol. we cant go to our fave camping spot (Sugar Loaf) because it is closed due to beetle kill in the trees. evidently they are bulldozing it and starting over....*tear* but at least we get to go yaaaay!!! we r coming back sat. after noon sometime. and we all know who else comes in at 2...........................KRISTIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my bestest friend ever. (besides Jesus of course) im sooooo excited i missed her soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!! well anyway i g2g finish packing woop woop!! ok im really going now lol ttfn i kno i kno DORK! bai bai see ya t2yl lyl really seriously bye!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok im done :P

Chivalry, 3 Feet Deep

chivalry is almost in its grave....but not quite. i think part of chivalry is natural so it may never die completely. i think a large reason for the absence of knights in shining armor is that they have no idea wat they r sposed to be doing. in olden days it was easy....rescue the girl from the dragon. but now the dragon is not fire breathing and the girl in less apparent danger. but tho the dragon is not as loud it is still just as powerful. most men dont know wat chivalry is because they have not been taught. some would say that its pulling out chairs and opening doors for the weaker sex (women, just thought i should clarify jk lol) -my atempt at humor. anyway....others would say that its being kind to all especially the needy. still others would go so far as to say that it is giving of yerself or sacrificing be it yer life, possesions or time. i would say that these are all good answers and correct to an extent. lets look at the word chivalry or chivalrous. in my english dictionary it says as follows: chivalry-the combination of qualities expected of the ideal medieval knight, especially courage, honor, loyalty, and consideration for others, especially women.

now if we look at the lives of ancient knights from legends such as king arthur and his knights of the round table we will see that not only did they have these "qualities", but it seemed to be a way of life for them. if a man dishonored himself in some way even if it was unintentional or on accident he would stop at nothing to regain that honor. he was never beholden to any other man, and if he could not repay someone he would offer himself as a slave until his dept was cleared. he never struck or spoke harshly to any woman, child, or animal. he fought against evil and protected those weaker than he. some of the knights spent years and years on one quest trying to fulfill a task. a knight was highly devoted and loyal to the crown and to his lady. he gained respect through humility and had unmatchable honor. a knight also had impeccable manners, they were raised as gentlemen not barbarians. obviosly there is no such thing as even close to perfection but these knights strived to be as close as they could. they were unbelievable men of God and though many of them never understood Him they would die for Him in a heart beat. so chivalry is soooo much more than opening doors....it is a way of thinking and a way of living.

Alone For Always

do u sometimes feel like yer alone fer always? like yer always in yer own little world and yer just waiting to share it with someone but it will be forever until they come.... God is there fer u and fer me, but even God understands our loneliness. he knows that we long to be with that special person he has predestined for us. y then can we not be satisfied in him? y cant we just leave it all in his hands and trust that wen the time is right we will meet our "significant other"? i have trouble with waiting...i see all my friends with boyfriends or people i know getting married, heck even my lil' bro has a girl lol. i see the destruction that comes with dating or premature relationships, and yet i find myself envying those people. y cant i just lean on God more and turn to him wen i feel unimportant or unloved? i wonder sometimes, am i the only girl who reads and rereads and rereads and rereads her favorite romance novels? who watches those chick flicks over and over again? people are affraid to voice their feelings, and i am too but i guess this blog kinda makes up fer a diary lol. not as private but it works. maybe thats a girl's worst fear....ending up alone. i know in my head im not alone but my heart aches. satan weedles his lies into my soul constantly but i must carry on as we all must carry on. days trudge by not stoping fer anyone, dragging and hastening at the same instant. for children they crawl fer parents they run but in reality time is always the same. i guess in many ways i dont think of myself as a child.... does anyone really think of themselves as young and ignorant? people like me are humble and proper and.....polite, but deep down they judge others and look down on them. they dont even realize it but it slowly creeps to the surface. (im getting waaaaaay off topic, but hey its my blog) people like me need to stop whining wen they dont get treated as an equal with everyone. im sooooo young and naive in many ways. of course yer parents dont understand u....because u dont let them understand u. if u hide yer true self from those you love, then u r truly lost and Alone For Always.

MySpace

so wats up with this whole MySpace thing anyway? i mean come on like every kid in america with a computor has one. (obviously not all cuz then i wouldnt have said like) people are obsessed with it and those that arent usually become that way cuz its the only way to keep in touch with people these days. no one has time to call every now and then or just pop in once in a while they r too busy for u.....unless u hav MySpace. its like BurgerKing online. have it yer way! u can have a blue background or a pink border or watever kind of music floats yer boat. yer all push overs and should slap yerselves. WAKE UP!!! wats more important in life really?? yer friends shouldnt have to sqeeze into a tiny box on the internet or take second place to video games..... MySpace is just one more way to avoid face to face confrontation with old, present, and new friends. sure it can be a good way to keep in touch, but should not be the only way.

Missing My Hair Identity

ok so ive been blonde my whole life. i love being blonde despite all the jokes, it just fits me. just this year my hair started turning brown... its not even a rich pretty brown, its an ugly mousy brown. i hate it and i dyed my hair for the first time in rebellion against my changing hair. i dyed it like a kind of red tinted blonde and i liked it but the roots have grown out and i'm wondering if i should except my fate and go brunette. idk it just seems so weird after all these years to have such a drastic change, but sometimes change is good.

The Guy

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her." (got this in an e-mail and thought it was sweet and very true)

Carnival Conspiracy

this past weekend some friends of mine and i went to Parker Days which is like a fair in Parker. of course since we r all in high school or newly graduated we r all completely broke, so in short we really have nothin else to do. so we get to this carnival and all the prices are waaaaaay jacked up, im talkin 8 bucks fer a smoothie and they were non-alcoholic!!!!!!!! now u know they r just tryin to suck every penny outa ya. plus they put these things on in the middle of summer so its freakin 95 degrees !!! u have to buy a drink or u'll die of heat stroke, but yer a high schooler so yer flat broke. now yer really in a fix. they've got u moochin off yer friends and parents and shoot just anyone who will spare a nickel. wats a body to do?? well i say stick it to the man. yup u heard me, show em that yer not gonna cave. lock yer jaw, stick out yer chin, puff up yer chest ..........and wen that doesnt work beg anyone and everyone or pool yer money together and share. they do it just to watch u whine. u know they do it, cuz it's wat u would do if u were them.

Number Pet Peeve

ok so i have a lot of pet peeves. one of them is wen someone says for example "do u want 5 or 7 donuts?" 5 or 7?!?!?!? y not say 5 or 6? another one " give me 8 or 10." pic one fer heaven sake!!!!! or say 8 to 10 that would at least make sense. but 8 or 10?!?!? that just sounds dumb.

Job

so the job thing is looking promising. there have been a few changes tho, because evidently they r looking at this lady who just lost her job and she has more experience. we could split the job since thats about the hrs. she is used to. then it would only be 20 hrs. a week which is much more manageable. it is still a touchy subject because they r prolly going to fire the person in this position which is y i havent really said much about it. i dont want to say much till i have officially applied. all right well i g2g work (i hate babysitting but it pays) ta ta fer now!

Airport Conspiracy

so in case u didnt know im a conspiracy theorist......honest. no really, i am. let me explain to u one of my theories. ok so u know how wen yer in the airport and u cant find the stupid sign for the gate? this especially happens at DIA it is soooooo confusing. signs point in the wrong direction or are slightly hidden from view and u have to get on those stupid trams that stop at A, B, C, and Baggage Claim. u end up wandering around the airport in circles looking for that elusive sign to point u in the right direction. i am convinced that this is no accident. too many people get lost in airports and u'd think they'd fix em. but noooooo. they have hidden cameras everywhere, just to watch u make a fool outa yerself by not being able to find where the heck yer sposed to go. "up there he goes again! thats the fifth time he has looked directly at the sign and gone the wrong way. ahahahaha" u know they do it, cuz its wat u would do if u were them.

Woah!

God is amazing. so on sunday i thought of a job i could apply for. it is 40 hrs. a week :( but i think i can do it since im gonna be homeschooled next year. its gonna be difficult but it is something i enjoy. plus i wont have to drive cuz its where my mom works too and she can just drive me. i'm excited and i hope they will let me apply. am also excited about being homeschooled next year. ill be able to do soooooooo much more. ok im bored so im gonna go.

alone for the summer

so my best friend is working at a camp this summer, and my brother (who just graduated and is moving out in august) is working at a different camp all summer, and my other very good friend is going to florida and im gonna be all alone for the summer. usually wen i start to complain about this people tell me to get a job myself (i need the money anyway) but i cant drive yet and i really dont feel like it.

hello

no one reads my other blog and im bored sooooooooo.......um idk guess ill make another one just fer kicks and giggles. haha