Alone For Always

do u sometimes feel like yer alone fer always? like yer always in yer own little world and yer just waiting to share it with someone but it will be forever until they come.... God is there fer u and fer me, but even God understands our loneliness. he knows that we long to be with that special person he has predestined for us. y then can we not be satisfied in him? y cant we just leave it all in his hands and trust that wen the time is right we will meet our "significant other"? i have trouble with waiting...i see all my friends with boyfriends or people i know getting married, heck even my lil' bro has a girl lol. i see the destruction that comes with dating or premature relationships, and yet i find myself envying those people. y cant i just lean on God more and turn to him wen i feel unimportant or unloved? i wonder sometimes, am i the only girl who reads and rereads and rereads and rereads her favorite romance novels? who watches those chick flicks over and over again? people are affraid to voice their feelings, and i am too but i guess this blog kinda makes up fer a diary lol. not as private but it works. maybe thats a girl's worst fear....ending up alone. i know in my head im not alone but my heart aches. satan weedles his lies into my soul constantly but i must carry on as we all must carry on. days trudge by not stoping fer anyone, dragging and hastening at the same instant. for children they crawl fer parents they run but in reality time is always the same. i guess in many ways i dont think of myself as a child.... does anyone really think of themselves as young and ignorant? people like me are humble and proper and.....polite, but deep down they judge others and look down on them. they dont even realize it but it slowly creeps to the surface. (im getting waaaaaay off topic, but hey its my blog) people like me need to stop whining wen they dont get treated as an equal with everyone. im sooooo young and naive in many ways. of course yer parents dont understand u....because u dont let them understand u. if u hide yer true self from those you love, then u r truly lost and Alone For Always.