My Fake Pearls

ive been clinging to things for a long time. like the little girl that bought a set of fake pearls and loved them more than anything else. one night the girls father came to her and said, "do you love me?" the little girl said, "of course i love u daddy, u kno i do." "then give me your pearls." said her father. "o not my pearls daddy, anything but my pearls." this conversation was repeated several nights in a row. then one night when the father came in the little girl sat on her bed almost in tears. he asked her wat was wrong and she held out her hand and dropped her strand of fake pearls into his hand and said, "i love u daddy here are my pearls." the father reached into his pocket with tears in his eyes and brought out a strand of real genuine pearls and gave them to the little girl.

"No Daddy, not my Bits. Not my sweet dog, anything but her..."
"No Daddy, don't take my friend, not him please I need him now..."
"No Daddy, not my Roxy, she is all i have left. Don't take her from me..."
"If I can't have anything else at least leave me the comfort of food Daddy..."

i think God is teaching me to let go of my earthly comforts and rely on him. so he can give me my pearls...

Spitting Out the Seeds

i think i may be finally past the initial crushing. i hope im not speaking too soon. i just hav to keep telling myself "u will get past this", "u will get over it" yesterday i was in an almost giddy mood and im sure that was just a realease of tention but today i feel better than i have in a long time. "happiness is a choice" as my mom would say and its tru, even in such extreme circumstances. in my blurb Too Hard To Get i said "Do we give up when life hands us lemons, or do we stand up and make lemonade? I personally don’t care for lemonade so this analogy doesn’t work for me. How about; when life hands you lemons bite into one, make a funny face, and spit out the seeds. Taste the bitterness and move on. Don’t wallow in misery sipping from it occasionally. Learn from the experience but don’t return to it daily." today i am spitting out the seeds.