The Great Outdoors

im going camping!!! yaaaaay!!! i havent gotten to go camping at all this summer so far, so im excited. last year we went once er maybe twice. anyway my dad is letting me take my dogs. i have a golden and a lab....Roxy and Peanut. im taking a tent so they can sleep in it with me instead of having to be in their kennels. niether one of them has ever been camping so it will be fun for all of us lol. we cant go to our fave camping spot (Sugar Loaf) because it is closed due to beetle kill in the trees. evidently they are bulldozing it and starting over....*tear* but at least we get to go yaaaay!!! we r coming back sat. after noon sometime. and we all know who else comes in at 2...........................KRISTIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my bestest friend ever. (besides Jesus of course) im sooooo excited i missed her soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!! well anyway i g2g finish packing woop woop!! ok im really going now lol ttfn i kno i kno DORK! bai bai see ya t2yl lyl really seriously bye!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok im done :P

Chivalry, 3 Feet Deep

chivalry is almost in its grave....but not quite. i think part of chivalry is natural so it may never die completely. i think a large reason for the absence of knights in shining armor is that they have no idea wat they r sposed to be doing. in olden days it was easy....rescue the girl from the dragon. but now the dragon is not fire breathing and the girl in less apparent danger. but tho the dragon is not as loud it is still just as powerful. most men dont know wat chivalry is because they have not been taught. some would say that its pulling out chairs and opening doors for the weaker sex (women, just thought i should clarify jk lol) -my atempt at humor. anyway....others would say that its being kind to all especially the needy. still others would go so far as to say that it is giving of yerself or sacrificing be it yer life, possesions or time. i would say that these are all good answers and correct to an extent. lets look at the word chivalry or chivalrous. in my english dictionary it says as follows: chivalry-the combination of qualities expected of the ideal medieval knight, especially courage, honor, loyalty, and consideration for others, especially women.

now if we look at the lives of ancient knights from legends such as king arthur and his knights of the round table we will see that not only did they have these "qualities", but it seemed to be a way of life for them. if a man dishonored himself in some way even if it was unintentional or on accident he would stop at nothing to regain that honor. he was never beholden to any other man, and if he could not repay someone he would offer himself as a slave until his dept was cleared. he never struck or spoke harshly to any woman, child, or animal. he fought against evil and protected those weaker than he. some of the knights spent years and years on one quest trying to fulfill a task. a knight was highly devoted and loyal to the crown and to his lady. he gained respect through humility and had unmatchable honor. a knight also had impeccable manners, they were raised as gentlemen not barbarians. obviosly there is no such thing as even close to perfection but these knights strived to be as close as they could. they were unbelievable men of God and though many of them never understood Him they would die for Him in a heart beat. so chivalry is soooo much more than opening doors....it is a way of thinking and a way of living.

Alone For Always

do u sometimes feel like yer alone fer always? like yer always in yer own little world and yer just waiting to share it with someone but it will be forever until they come.... God is there fer u and fer me, but even God understands our loneliness. he knows that we long to be with that special person he has predestined for us. y then can we not be satisfied in him? y cant we just leave it all in his hands and trust that wen the time is right we will meet our "significant other"? i have trouble with waiting...i see all my friends with boyfriends or people i know getting married, heck even my lil' bro has a girl lol. i see the destruction that comes with dating or premature relationships, and yet i find myself envying those people. y cant i just lean on God more and turn to him wen i feel unimportant or unloved? i wonder sometimes, am i the only girl who reads and rereads and rereads and rereads her favorite romance novels? who watches those chick flicks over and over again? people are affraid to voice their feelings, and i am too but i guess this blog kinda makes up fer a diary lol. not as private but it works. maybe thats a girl's worst fear....ending up alone. i know in my head im not alone but my heart aches. satan weedles his lies into my soul constantly but i must carry on as we all must carry on. days trudge by not stoping fer anyone, dragging and hastening at the same instant. for children they crawl fer parents they run but in reality time is always the same. i guess in many ways i dont think of myself as a child.... does anyone really think of themselves as young and ignorant? people like me are humble and proper and.....polite, but deep down they judge others and look down on them. they dont even realize it but it slowly creeps to the surface. (im getting waaaaaay off topic, but hey its my blog) people like me need to stop whining wen they dont get treated as an equal with everyone. im sooooo young and naive in many ways. of course yer parents dont understand u....because u dont let them understand u. if u hide yer true self from those you love, then u r truly lost and Alone For Always.

MySpace

so wats up with this whole MySpace thing anyway? i mean come on like every kid in america with a computor has one. (obviously not all cuz then i wouldnt have said like) people are obsessed with it and those that arent usually become that way cuz its the only way to keep in touch with people these days. no one has time to call every now and then or just pop in once in a while they r too busy for u.....unless u hav MySpace. its like BurgerKing online. have it yer way! u can have a blue background or a pink border or watever kind of music floats yer boat. yer all push overs and should slap yerselves. WAKE UP!!! wats more important in life really?? yer friends shouldnt have to sqeeze into a tiny box on the internet or take second place to video games..... MySpace is just one more way to avoid face to face confrontation with old, present, and new friends. sure it can be a good way to keep in touch, but should not be the only way.

Missing My Hair Identity

ok so ive been blonde my whole life. i love being blonde despite all the jokes, it just fits me. just this year my hair started turning brown... its not even a rich pretty brown, its an ugly mousy brown. i hate it and i dyed my hair for the first time in rebellion against my changing hair. i dyed it like a kind of red tinted blonde and i liked it but the roots have grown out and i'm wondering if i should except my fate and go brunette. idk it just seems so weird after all these years to have such a drastic change, but sometimes change is good.

The Guy

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her." (got this in an e-mail and thought it was sweet and very true)

Carnival Conspiracy

this past weekend some friends of mine and i went to Parker Days which is like a fair in Parker. of course since we r all in high school or newly graduated we r all completely broke, so in short we really have nothin else to do. so we get to this carnival and all the prices are waaaaaay jacked up, im talkin 8 bucks fer a smoothie and they were non-alcoholic!!!!!!!! now u know they r just tryin to suck every penny outa ya. plus they put these things on in the middle of summer so its freakin 95 degrees !!! u have to buy a drink or u'll die of heat stroke, but yer a high schooler so yer flat broke. now yer really in a fix. they've got u moochin off yer friends and parents and shoot just anyone who will spare a nickel. wats a body to do?? well i say stick it to the man. yup u heard me, show em that yer not gonna cave. lock yer jaw, stick out yer chin, puff up yer chest ..........and wen that doesnt work beg anyone and everyone or pool yer money together and share. they do it just to watch u whine. u know they do it, cuz it's wat u would do if u were them.

Number Pet Peeve

ok so i have a lot of pet peeves. one of them is wen someone says for example "do u want 5 or 7 donuts?" 5 or 7?!?!?!? y not say 5 or 6? another one " give me 8 or 10." pic one fer heaven sake!!!!! or say 8 to 10 that would at least make sense. but 8 or 10?!?!? that just sounds dumb.

Job

so the job thing is looking promising. there have been a few changes tho, because evidently they r looking at this lady who just lost her job and she has more experience. we could split the job since thats about the hrs. she is used to. then it would only be 20 hrs. a week which is much more manageable. it is still a touchy subject because they r prolly going to fire the person in this position which is y i havent really said much about it. i dont want to say much till i have officially applied. all right well i g2g work (i hate babysitting but it pays) ta ta fer now!

Airport Conspiracy

so in case u didnt know im a conspiracy theorist......honest. no really, i am. let me explain to u one of my theories. ok so u know how wen yer in the airport and u cant find the stupid sign for the gate? this especially happens at DIA it is soooooo confusing. signs point in the wrong direction or are slightly hidden from view and u have to get on those stupid trams that stop at A, B, C, and Baggage Claim. u end up wandering around the airport in circles looking for that elusive sign to point u in the right direction. i am convinced that this is no accident. too many people get lost in airports and u'd think they'd fix em. but noooooo. they have hidden cameras everywhere, just to watch u make a fool outa yerself by not being able to find where the heck yer sposed to go. "up there he goes again! thats the fifth time he has looked directly at the sign and gone the wrong way. ahahahaha" u know they do it, cuz its wat u would do if u were them.

Woah!

God is amazing. so on sunday i thought of a job i could apply for. it is 40 hrs. a week :( but i think i can do it since im gonna be homeschooled next year. its gonna be difficult but it is something i enjoy. plus i wont have to drive cuz its where my mom works too and she can just drive me. i'm excited and i hope they will let me apply. am also excited about being homeschooled next year. ill be able to do soooooooo much more. ok im bored so im gonna go.

alone for the summer

so my best friend is working at a camp this summer, and my brother (who just graduated and is moving out in august) is working at a different camp all summer, and my other very good friend is going to florida and im gonna be all alone for the summer. usually wen i start to complain about this people tell me to get a job myself (i need the money anyway) but i cant drive yet and i really dont feel like it.