Praise Him Through the Storm

These past couple of weeks have been really rough. My emotions have been insanely mixed; up and down all day long. Thursday was the first day i found out that i had for sure been betrayed by someone i cared about very much. For three days after i had a knot in my stomach that wouldnt go away and if i sat still i could feel myself shaking. On Sunday i finally decided that something had to change. This whole year has been one heartache after another and im really tired of being hurt. This is life after all and it doesnt get much better from here. I should not be suprised that with life comes pain, with love comes hurt, and with sin comes destruction.

Thank you God for stripping me of my pride. Thank you for breaking me down and taking my will to disobey away. But God do not leave me broken, stripped, and desolate. Build me back up, clothe me in garments of righteousness, and pour comfort and joy into my heart.

Yesterday I stepped out of my comfort zone. I reached out because I will go crazy if I don’t. I went to church by myself and then I went to a bbq for the young adult group. I didn’t know anybody there except for a few that I have seen but never really talked to. But I went anyway. I called my mom and she prayed with me before I walked over to the group and that gave me what little courage I needed. I met everyone in the group, we played softball and ate hamburgers and I had a great time. I didn’t become instant best friends with anyone but I know that it was definitely a step in the direction of making some more friends.

Why should I sit in my room being depressed over someone that hurt me? Is he worth my pain? Is he worth my shame? Shouldn’t I spend that time praising the one who is worth my joy, and worth my love?

Psalm 40
“1I waited patiently for the LORD;
And He inclined to me and heard my cry.
2He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay,
And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm.
3He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God;
Many will see and fear
And will trust in the LORD.”