today is my 20th birthday. today i move from being in my "teens" to being in my "twenties" hence the reason i had to do away with the old blog title "Memoirs of a Teenage Hermit." this starts a new chapter in my life. a new beginning. i can let go of adolescence and embrace adulthood. when asked the ever popular birthday question, "so do you feel older today?" i cannot honestly say i feel older than i did yesterday, but i can say with complete honesty that i feel older than i did last year. last year seems ages ago wen i first started off to live on my own away from home. what was so scary a year ago seems fairly natural now. what terrified me a year ago i almost enjoy. isnt it interesting how this happens?
what will my new chapter hold? what new insights and experiences will i aquire within its pages? i am so much more curiously optimistic than i used to be. instead of being afraid of the unknown that is ahead and trying to plan out every detail so that there are no surprises, i find myself reveling in the not knowing. i wrap the thrill of the unexplored around me like a cozy blanket. how many adventures can i find? how many mountains can i climb?
i look at myself in the mirror and see raw potential. but potential for what?? i suppose that IS the adventure, discovering the source of passion and feeding it.
am i out of place in this world? yes :) and that makes it all the more exciting!
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