Graduation and next year

graduation is a lot like a first kiss. its daring and scary but exciting and thrilling, a little weird at first but very very sweet!! haha i kno silly analogy. but graduation is all those things. my ceremony was beautiful and ill never forget it but wat was said prolly wont sink in till iv moved out. right now im stuck. on the edge between freedom and still bein a kid. i wanna be an adult but its hard and sometimes i dont wanna deal with wats hard. wen im sick i still ask my mommy to make me soup, wen im tired i still try to get out of my chores, wen im feeling lazy i still wait for someone else to make dinner, and wen im hurt i still watch chick flicks, eat chocolate, and cry myself to sleep (which i suspect one never quite gets over lol) i talk to my fish like he knows wat im saying and i let my room get too messy to walk in. some parts r just me and others r childish. next year is gonna be really hard. ive never had to live with many other girls before, just my mom. i dont tend to get along with girls as much as guys. im not used to sharing a room. its just gonna be an awkward adjustment but i think it will be good for me. i need to be put in new and strange positions so i can learn to adapt.....more thoughts later