i spent this past weekend at the Revolve tour with my GO girls and we had a wonderful time. the speakers were funny and energetic and even tho they werent as deep as we would have liked, each of us got something special out of the time together and the amazing fellowship. the most powerful experience i had though, did not come during any of the sessions, or during the music and concerts, or even in the fellowship (though laughing and talking in the car and staying up till 4am chatting was very fun and powerful.) no the most powerful experience i had was on the lunch break, day 2.
all day long my knees had been bothering me. it happens a lot but especially wen i sit or stand in the same place for an extended period of time. so during the lunch break (since we ate early) i decided to get up and walk around. first i walked out of the auditorium, but it was so crowded that i wasnt making much headway so i went back in the auditorium and just walked the colisium circle. as i was walking i was suddenly struck by the magnitude of this event.
as i looked, i saw thousands and thousands of woman. mostly teenage girls and i thought to myself out of thousands of hairs on thousands of heads, and thousands of thoughts in thousands of minds, God knows and cares about each and every one!! how amazing is that?? now imagine how much He cares about the millions of problems and hurts and joys and struggles represented in that room...
i began to pray as i walked. i let my eyes scan the girls i was passing. and i began to see how amazingly varied they were. God's fingerprints on each one. such beauty. i saw every hair color imaginable, every body type, clothing style, personality, and all their insecurities, their hopes and dreams, their hurts and sins, all flashed before my eyes and i was overwhelmed. i didnt even kno wat to pray for at first. i just kept thinking "these girls are beautifully and wonderfully made, and they r hurting, crying out in anguish" we hav a struggling generation on our hands.
as i passed face after face, i couldnt help but smile "God bless this child, heal that one, teach her to love others, teach her to love herself, show that one your mercy, show another your power, grant this one kindness, teach that one obedience, pour joy into this one, be a father to that one, show her she can came as she is, grant the mother beside her patience and peace...." and on and on. when my own mother spotted me and came to see wat i was doing i narrowly escaped breaking down into a torrent of tears lol. the whole thing was such an overwhelming experience.
i believe God has given me a heart for these girls for a reason, that he is calling me to minister to them. and i kno exactly y he picked me lol. because i am the least qualified. like moses and paul (im toooootally not comparing myself to them except in my faults btw) i am soooo inadequate, thank God, He delights in using the inadequate. :) please pray that God would mold me into the godly woman he wants me to be, that i will not look at my faults and see lacking or inadequacy but that i would see potential and room to grow. may i be a testimony to the fact that God can use anyone for the things they are worst at. i hav a tendancy to become discouraged and use excuses, pray that i will always be willing whether i am good at something or not. and please please please pray that i will not grow weary in persuing "whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable" and "[everything that] is excellent or praiseworthy"
Thank you,
Asher
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