Growing Up

so im turning 18 in 11 days... its kinda scary. idk that im ready for it. is anyone ever ready? or do some people just think they r? my dad got me this laptop as an early b-day present/yer going to college so maybe this will be an insentive to do yer hw lol its pretty sweet and iv wanted one 4 forever!!!! but it also brings some unpleasent thoughts...college. ya college is wen the little birdies leave the nest to make their way in the world..... im torn in two. i want to be on my own but at the same time im scared. i wont have anyone to tell me to go to bed on time, or to not eat too much ice cream. i wont hav to call home if im gonna be out late or if i wanna go somewhere with friends. no one to fix me lunch wen im feeling lazy or make me soup wen im sick. i also wont have a fuzzy body(my dogs) to snuggle with wen i have bad dreams or play with wen im bored. who will cheer my up with a sloppy, slobbery kiss wen im sad? lol this year will be a small taste of that.... my last year to show my family and friends wat they mean to me.